::Title Any1?::
laz sat my tuition teacher was telling us abt how dwn-syndrom ppl r de hapiest ppl on earth... cuz dey dun noe wats goin on arnd dem, everydae is juz lyk a whole new adventure for dem. & deir always, always hapi. mayb its cuz dey dun noe da meanin of bein hapi... or rather... bein sad...
mayb its betta sometimes to not noe stuff... she told us da more we know abt sth, da more we fear it... i gas its tru... haiz.. i wish i cud 4get stuff on comand... den i'll nv be sad... but tts imposible... i noe....
yest i me jaz t bpp... & delores just now... oso at bpp (sry de, juz now v blur, din reali notice u... heh...)
ok, so abt da slpova thgy... we're currently "homeless".... hehx... dun get wat i min? ermx... mins we dun have a place to slpova at... (pls note: ppl, i tink u noe hu u r rite? lyk my closer grp of fwenz? -im tokin abt 6peace05 ppl, sry 1g2- preferbly da same ppl 4 da prev slpova? kk, so if u do hav space, contact me / 1e asap... contact 1e betta... hahax, jk 1e....)
& i carn wait 4 sat! its gonna be so damn cool! ahh! (see, im NOT hidin my emotions... hapi?) i srsly carn wait! so... hapi early b'dae to jia yi & agys! stay hapi always yeah! 6 peace 0'5 & (most of....)1G2 rawks! rawk on 4ver!

::Shucks lar::
i noe u guys all v sian of my posts... so u dun havta read it if u dun wanna. im postin dis cuz dis is how i reali feel.. & not how i appear on de outside...
i noe i look lyk way hyper everydae in skool, & sumtimes a little crazy... but im hurtin deep dwn inside...
so mani thing happened since we've got into sec skool... & im not juz tokin abt my fwenz, my own family matters... haiz... i durno wat to do anymore... wats rite & wats wrong... & i admit im hidin my emotions... lyk reali reali hard... but i carn help it... sumtimes i juz gotta let it all out...
i juz watched da grad video... haiz... it brings back so mani memories of our pri skool life... perhaps its wrong to be so attatched to sth tt u noe one day won't be dere anymore.
but can u blame me? every kid loves deir childhood days, da onli one dey can hold on to 4 de yrs ahead.
haiz... one more th, to my v close family fwen... may God always be wit u... & may He giv u da strength to overcome all obstacles in life... i know its a v emotional & tuff time 4 u & ur family now, but we'll always be here 4 u...

::Ijbt Stil Da Skool I Noe?::
i durno, but im feelin reali blu... i miss ijbt & all my fwenz lyk so bad... i nv get to see u guys... haiz... u noe wat? i h8 dis... i reali h8 dis... i h8 havin to go thru every single day noein... tt one day... haiz... i dun even have to type dis dwn, u guys already noe it... fine im scared, im seriously scared ok... its not my fault...
haiz... ijbt... i miss tt skool... rmb when we cried wen they were tearin down da skool? we were lyk so emotional... we so wanted to stop dem... i min we were so attatched to tt skool... 5 & a half(supposedly) yrs in tt skool & u juz tell us ok, we're havin prime, we're moving to a holding skool. so we moved... den now... u wanna change da skool name aft da skool is moved bac... i min how can u do dis to us?! yeah, it may not min anyth to da principal or teachers, but it mins alot to us & all former students of tt skool. we were so proud to tell others we were frm ijbt & den nex yr when u've moved back wat do u expect us to sae? i was frm chij bukit timah which now doesn exist anymore?! lyk argh!
u noe, everytym i pas by da skool be it da holdin skool or da yet-to-be-built new skool, i carn help but wonder... is tt reali da skool i studied in 4 so mani yrs? i min i dun care if u change da teachers, da principal, da building, da skool flag or even change it to a co-ed pri & sec skool, but plz, juz kp da name... plz...

::Heck::
i got jj's cd... i noe i shld be lyk : YAY!!!!!!!!!... but its lyk... y do i kp tinkin abt da past... izit reali tt hard to let go? haiz...
yest aft eng tuition, 1e & i walked to bukit panjang plaza to get jj cd... we were reali hyper... lyk reali... & u noe how we can be when we're hyper... everyone was practically staring at us... we were lyk arguein over hu was... ehem... we were lyk: hahax... u r... haha... no, u r... hahax... seriously, da "hahas" aint exargeration... at bukit panjang plaza even more ppl were staring at us... again... we were luffing lyk xiao, den took da wrong escallator... walked back again... saw jia ni(frm our tuition class) again... went to popular, dey onli had da horizontal cd(i wanted the vertical one)... so walk all da way dwn... took wrong turn... again... hax... walked to shop & save(not so sure about the name... or was it... err... nvm...)... dey said jj's cd was sold out... so walked to laser flair... finally got jj's cd... so hapi...
den joyce sms 1e sayin she was at ten mile junction(where we had our tuition) so we called her & asked if she saw us... she didn... so nvm lor... juz cont luffin hysterically...
it was alreadi lyk 745... so we walked back home... it was freakingly quiet & creepy... we were lyked freaked out(& still hyper...) den i was lyk "uh huh...kp toking..." hahax... we started complainin abt ppl we hated.... (wait, it was me... hahax...) tt was mainly what we toked abt... reached home at only about 8... we hugged each other b4 we went up... (sho sweet rite? hehx...)
yest was so fun... thx 1e...

::Sniff::
im reali depressed now... haiz... i miss ijbt so much... i miss all my fwenz.. things rnt da same animore... i feel lyk pouring my thots out... but to hu? haiz...
i noe i stil can confide in u guys... but... its diff... i min... haiz... too mani hings hold too mani memories... & i feel lyk cryin rite now... u noe how hard it is to hold back my tears... esp when i noe i have to go on in life...
(cjm, dus dis ans ur question of y i was so quiet in da bus?)
i've tried to completly stop listening to "fwenz 4ever" by vitamin c... but... i noe i carn kip runnin away frm it... todae on da mornin skool bus... when i was listening to my mp3... i came across tt song... i hesitated to change da song... i noe someday, i'd have to face it... it kept on playing... & i cried... it brought back so many memories... both of sorrow & joy.. it hurt... it reali hurt... i knew it was all in da past... & nothing can bring it back...
not now... not ever...
haiz...
im sry... i noe i shldnt be tokin abt dis... its unair to 1g2... esp when our theme is fairness... but i carn help it... haiz...
hapi early b'dae to unice... i moz prob carn go online on mon... so i wish u a hapi b'dae now... & gd luck 4 ur test... im so sry unice & cheryl... i din get u guys anith... but dere's one th i can giv u... tts de reassurence tt i'll always be here when u nid mi...

::ARGH!!!!!!!!::
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i carn take it anymore ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel lyk strangling her !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & i have to see her idiotic face every week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! urgh!!!!!!!!!!!! u now how torturing it is?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
...
ok, breathe amanda, i have to relax... cannot get so worked up ova someone lyk her... hmph... cme project due tmrw... so dead... hiaz...
my skool celabratin 50th anniversary dis year. we havin food & fun fair... can u guys(6 peace 0'5) lyk cum? its on 8th april, sat... i reali wanna see u guys ag... den will be lyk laz year, ij fun fair... cept it'll have more ppl we dun noe... can? plz... anw still v long frm now, go ask k... den if u guys wanna buy tickets muz tell mi quickly hor... if ya'll dun zhi chi da skool at liz muz zhi chi wo ok? hahax... erm.. ya, & my shift frm 1 to 3... so cum in morn ok... yao pei wo...
haiz... i want da jj cd... damn...

::Hmmm::
ok, so things rnt exactly goin da way we planned... we said we would kp i contact & stay as close as possible (as in our friendship, pls 4 heaven's sake, dun tink dirty...) & one more, 4 mi, 1e & jaz, we wanted to mit up once a week (hehehx...).
but we cudnt... da reasons? simple. da basics: cca, too busy, study (not mi...), too much hw... bla bla bla... all tt stuff...
&, some of u mite have noticed... we r startin to drift apart... haiz... we knew it wud happen... sooner or l8r... u see, we always hav to leave dose we love, but tolerate dose we h8, which always seem to nv leave ur side... take dis 4 instance, aft 6 yrs of pri skool & grad, we had to leave our fwenz... but when we get a job in da future, we lyk totally have to tolerate our bosses (unless of cuz he's cute... lol...).
so... u guys muz call mi more often yeah... hahax... & sms mi k... or atliz tag at my blog (unice! cheryl! tag!!!!!!) & update ur blog... tt is if u hav one... duh... im so lame... ok nvm...

ps, stay hapi 1e! & rock on all of u!

::I Dun Noe Anymore::
i noe u guys wont... 4get mi... but dere's always sth which makes mi doubt tt... i min... its lyk we dun communicate... at all... smses r rare okay... i min rare... & calls r lyk extinct...
haiz...
im reali afraid one day... u'll 4get mi.. & i'll 4get u... & we'll be lyk complete strangers leading two completely different lives...
i miss u guys lyk so much... sec skool life is so diff frm pri skool... i miss bein called a 6peacian... i miss mrs ong... lyk seriously... i miss her shoulder twitchn... if tt's wat u call it... i miss da spots we use to hang in... i miss cryin 2gether.... i miss okin to all of u... i miss mrs ang's finger pointin... i miss teasin u guys... i miss seein every1 of u in de morn... i miss hidin frm da teacher in da morn behind da wall... i miss playin badminton wit u all... i miss da countless recesses we had juz sittin 2gether & tokin... i miss ijbt... i miss all my fwens & teachers...
but i noe i carn kp livin in da shadow of my past... but its so hard to let go.. esp frm sth im so attachted to... haiz...

::Haiz::
"I Still..."
: backstreet boys
Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

im sorry... i reali din min it... i noe u carn read dis... but im reali reali sorry... you used to say i took u 4 granted... but u took my hopes 4 granted... i din min to act tt way towards u... its just tt im reali hurt by wat u said... im reali reali sry... 4giv mi?

::Hmph::
tell mi hu's houdini!!!! jianmei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! clarissa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi tell mi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

::Lalala::
hapi belated b'dae cheryl! i'm one dae late... sry... hehx...